Friday, June 6, 2025

Witness protection

 


Chapter 1: The Wrong Place

The first thing Renzo noticed wasn't the van pulling up to the curb, or the two men who got out without closing the doors gently. It was the way the jogger across the street suddenly stopped jogging and started walking back the way she'd come.

Federal witness protection had taught him to notice things like that.

He was fumbling for his keys outside the grocery store, paper bags balanced against his hip, when the footsteps came up fast behind him. Professional. Purposeful. Not the shuffle of someone just trying to get past.

"Renzo Castellano?"

He didn't turn around. Three months of new identity training, and the first rule was simple: if someone uses your real name, run.

The parking lot offered nowhere to go. Twenty yards to his car, maybe fifteen to the store entrance, but his legs had already turned to concrete. This was the moment every witness dreaded—when the old life caught up with careful plans and new addresses.

"Easy, kid. We just want to talk."

The voice was calm, almost conversational. Brooklyn accent. Old school.

Renzo's phone was in his back pocket, but his hands wouldn't move. The groceries—milk, bread, the ingredients for pasta sauce he'd planned to make for dinner—suddenly felt impossibly heavy.

"My name is Mike Torres," he said, voice barely above a whisper. The lie they'd given him, practiced a thousand times in front of bathroom mirrors. "I think you have the wrong person."

Someone laughed behind him. "Sure you are, kid. And I'm the Easter Bunny."

The chloroform-soaked rag came from his left side, where he hadn't been watching. His last coherent thought before the world went dark was that he should have trusted the jogger's instincts.

He should have run.

Chapter 2: Awakening

Consciousness returned in fragments.

First, the taste—metallic and bitter, like sucking on pennies. Then the headache, a dull throb that seemed to pulse behind his eyes. The blindfold came into focus last, or rather the absolute darkness it created.

Renzo tried to move and immediately understood his situation. His bare chest was slick with sweat, the cool air of the cabin raising goosebumps across his skin. They'd stripped his shirt but left him in his gray tracksuit bottoms—some small mercy, or maybe just practicality.

Rope bound his wrists to opposite corners of what felt like an old iron bedframe, his arms spread wide in a perfect T. The position was designed for maximum discomfort—not quite enough slack to bend his elbows, but stretched just tight enough that his shoulders ached with the constant strain.

His legs were bound together at the ankles and knees, then stretched toward the foot of the bed where more rope anchored him to the frame. The awkward angle pulled at his lower back, forcing an uncomfortable arch that he couldn't relieve no matter how he shifted his weight.

Sweat pooled in his armpits and trickled down his sides, mixing salt with the rope burns that were already beginning to form. His chest rose and fell rapidly—panic breathing that he couldn't seem to control despite knowing it would only tire him faster.

The gag filled his mouth completely, secured with what felt like a leather strap behind his head. Every breath had to be deliberate, measured through his nose.

From somewhere in the darkness beyond the blindfold came the creak of floorboards. A chair scraped against wood. They were there, watching him test his bonds, waiting to see how long it would take him to understand his situation.

This wasn't a kidnapping. This was something much worse.

And they were in no hurry at all.

Chapter 3: The Waiting

Time became meaningless in the darkness.

Renzo had tried counting his heartbeats, his breaths, anything to maintain some sense of how long he'd been stretched across the bed. But panic made his pulse erratic, and the gag forced him to focus so intently on each breath that he lost count within minutes.

The white cotton rope was softer than he'd expected, but it held him just as securely. Every time he tested his bonds—and he couldn't help testing them, despite knowing it was futile—the rope reminded him of its presence without cutting into his skin. His shoulders ached from the constant stretch, muscles protesting the unnatural position, but it was uncomfortable rather than agonizing.

For now.

Sweat continued to bead on his chest and run down his sides, pooling where his back arched against the mattress. The tracksuit bottoms clung to his legs, damp with perspiration and fear. He could smell his own terror—sharp and acrid in the stale air.

Through the blindfold's absolute darkness, he strained to hear something, anything that might give him a clue about where he was. The acoustics suggested an indoor space, but beyond that, nothing. No traffic sounds, no voices from neighboring buildings. The silence was complete except for the occasional distant sound he couldn't identify.

Maybe they left, he thought desperately. Maybe they got what they wanted just by taking me.

But even as the hope flickered through his mind, he knew it was wishful thinking. They hadn't gone through all this trouble—the careful abduction, the deliberate restraints—just to abandon him here. This was preparation for something worse.

His throat was already getting dry. The gag absorbed what little saliva he could produce, leaving his mouth feeling increasingly parched.

Footsteps approached from somewhere beyond his feet, and Renzo's entire body tensed against the ropes.

They were back.

Chapter 4: The Move

"Time to go for a ride, kid."

The voice cut through the darkness, close enough that Renzo could feel warm breath against his ear. Hands worked at the knots holding him to the bed, but there was no relief—only the promise of something worse.

"Don't get any ideas," another voice warned as they freed his ankles. "You so much as twitch wrong, and this gets a lot less pleasant."

They kept the blindfold and gag in place, replacing the wrist restraints with zip ties that bit into his skin. His bare chest was exposed to the cool air as they hauled him upright, circulation returning in painful pins and needles.

The journey was a blur of being half-carried, half-dragged. Cool night air hit his face and chest briefly—outside, but he had no idea where. A van door slammed shut, and then they were moving, the rumble of tires on asphalt giving way to the crunch of gravel, then dirt roads that made the vehicle bounce and sway.

"How much further?" someone asked.

"Twenty minutes. Place has been in the family for decades. Nobody's gonna find him out there."

Renzo tried to memorize every turn, every sound, but fear made his mind scatter. The only thing that stuck was the growing certainty that wherever they were taking him, it would be worse than the bed.

Much worse.

When the van finally stopped, they dragged him across uneven ground and up wooden steps that creaked under their weight. A door opened with the screech of old hinges, and suddenly he was inside, breathing air that smelled of dust and decay and something else—something that made his stomach lurch.

"String him up," came the order. "Do it right this time."

Before Renzo could even think about fighting, hemp rope—rough and unforgiving—was already circling his wrists. Then his biceps. His thighs. His neck.

They worked with practiced efficiency, threading rope through iron rings hammered into the cabin's support beams. His arms were pulled wide and high, biceps burning as the hemp bit deep. His legs spread wide too, rope around his thighs distributing the strain while his ankles were anchored to the floor.

The rope around his neck was the worst—tight enough to keep his head pulled back, forcing him to gasp for every breath. Each inhalation became a struggle, his chest heaving as he fought to draw air through his nose past the gag. The position made his diaphragm work overtime, sweat breaking out across his bare torso from the effort of simply breathing.

"There," one of them said, stepping back to admire their work. "Kid's not going anywhere now."

Renzo hung there in the darkness, every muscle screaming, gasping for breath, and finally understood what they meant by a hunting cabin.

He was the prey.

Chapter 5: The Ordeal

The first hour was panic.

Renzo fought the ropes with everything he had, twisting against the hemp until it carved red welts into his skin. His chest heaved as he gasped for air through his nose, the neck rope making every breath a conscious effort. Sweat poured down his bare torso, stinging the rope burns that were already forming.

The second hour was bargaining with God.

If you get me out of this, I'll never testify against anyone again. I'll disappear. I'll become a priest. Anything.

But the cabin remained silent except for his own labored breathing and the creak of old wood settling around him.

The third hour was when the real pain began.

His shoulders screamed from the unnatural angle, muscles cramping as the hemp rope around his biceps cut off circulation. His thighs burned where the rope bit deep, distributing his weight in ways his body was never meant to endure. The constant strain of keeping his head back to ease the pressure on his throat made his neck muscles spasm.

Then footsteps on the porch. The door creaked open.

"Kid's had some time to think," a voice said. Hands worked at the gag, pulling the leather from his mouth.

Renzo gasped, his throat raw and dry. "Please," he croaked immediately. "I won't testify. I'll disappear. You'll never see me again."

"That right?" The voice was conversational, almost amused.

"I'll tell them I lied! That I was confused, on drugs, whatever you want. My family's already gone—I have nothing left. Why would I testify now?"

"Should've thought about that before you opened your mouth to the feds, kid."

The gag was forced back into his mouth before he could say more. Then hands moved to the ropes.

"Give those another quarter turn each," came the order.

The hemp tightened around his biceps, his thighs, pulling his limbs to their absolute limit. The rope around his neck drew taut, forcing his head back until spots danced behind the blindfold. His entire body screamed as physics took over—every rope working against the others to create maximum strain.

"There. Physics'll do the rest."

Footsteps retreated. The door slammed shut.

In the darkness, Renzo finally understood. This wasn't intimidation. This was execution—just slow enough that they'd be long gone when his body finally gave out.

He was going to die here, stretched between these ropes, and no one would ever find him.

Chapter 6: Alone

The silence that followed their departure was absolute.

Renzo hung in the darkness, every fiber of hemp rope now cutting deep into his flesh. The quarter-turn adjustments had transformed discomfort into agony. His biceps felt like they were being sawed in half. The rope around his thighs had become a tourniquet, cutting off circulation until his legs went numb below the knees.

But it was the neck rope that terrified him most. Pulled so tight now that each breath was a battle, his chest working overtime to force air through his nose past the gag. His vision swam behind the blindfold as oxygen became precious, rationed.

How long? The question hammered through his mind with each labored breath. How long can a body take this?

His shoulders had long since stopped screaming—the pain had moved beyond sensation into something deeper, a fundamental wrongness in every joint and muscle. His wrists had gone completely numb, though he could still feel the hemp sawing deeper with each involuntary twitch.

Hours passed. Or maybe minutes. Time had become elastic, measured only in the rhythm of forced breathing and the steady throb of his pulse in his ears.

Delirium began to creep in around the edges. He found himself thinking about his mother's pasta sauce, the recipe he'd been planning to make for dinner the night they took him. Such a simple thing. Garlic, tomatoes, basil. He'd never make it now.

His throat was desert-dry. The gag had absorbed every drop of saliva, leaving his mouth feeling stuffed with sand. Dehydration would probably kill him before the ropes did, he realized with strange detachment.

Someone will find me, he told himself desperately. The marshals are looking. They have to be looking.

But even as he clung to that hope, he knew the truth. This cabin was chosen specifically because no one would find it. No one would hear him. No one would know what happened here until it was far too late.

The ropes continued their patient work, and Renzo hung suspended between life and death, waiting for his body to make the final choice.

Chapter 7: Justice

The sound of helicopter rotors cut through Renzo's fading consciousness like a lifeline.

He'd stopped counting breaths hours ago, his world narrowed to the basic function of staying alive one inhalation at a time. The hemp ropes had done their work—his circulation was failing, his vision graying even behind the blindfold. He was dying by degrees.

Then came the voices. Shouting. The crash of the cabin door splintering open.

"Jesus Christ—get him down! Now!"

Hands worked frantically at the knots, but the hemp had tightened so much under his weight that they had to cut the ropes. Renzo collapsed the moment his restraints were severed, his legs unable to support him. Strong arms caught him before he hit the floor.

"I've got you, son. You're safe now."

Deputy Marshal Patricia Hayes had been tracking him for eighteen hours straight, following cell tower pings and traffic cameras through three states. The hunting cabin had been the fourth location they'd searched, but the rope burns on his wrists told her they'd found him just in time.

Three months later

The wheelchair felt like another kind of restraint.

Renzo's shoulders had healed enough to function, but nerve damage in his neck meant he couldn't hold his head up for long periods. The prosecution had wanted to delay his testimony, but he'd refused. Every day they waited was another day for the defense to find new ways to discredit him.

The courtroom was packed. Vincent Marconi sat at the defense table in an expensive suit, looking like a successful businessman rather than the man who'd ordered his torture. Their eyes met across the room, and Marconi smiled—cold and knowing.

"Mr. Castellano, please tell the court what you witnessed on the night of March 15th."

The prosecutor's voice was gentle, but Renzo's hands still trembled as he adjusted the neck brace. When he spoke, his voice was barely above a whisper—permanent damage from the rope around his throat.

"I saw Vincent Marconi shoot Detective Luis Rodriguez three times in the chest. Then he ordered his men to dispose of the body."

The defense attorney objected repeatedly, but the evidence was overwhelming. Renzo's testimony, combined with the physical evidence they'd recovered, painted a clear picture of systematic corruption and murder.

Two weeks later

"Has the jury reached a verdict?"

"We have, Your Honor."

Renzo sat in the front row, still in his wheelchair, as the foreman stood. The rope burns on his wrists had faded to pink scars, but the deeper damage would never fully heal.

"On the charge of murder in the first degree, we find the defendant Vincent Marconi... guilty."

The courtroom erupted. Marconi's face remained impassive as the judge sentenced him to life without parole, but Renzo caught him looking back one final time as the bailiffs led him away.

Even behind bars, Marconi's reach was long. And Renzo knew, with the certainty of a man who'd felt hemp rope cutting into his flesh, that this wouldn't be the end.

Justice had been served. But the nightmares would never stop

.Chapter 8: Confronting Fear

The safe house was supposed to feel secure, but Renzo hadn't slept more than two hours at a stretch since the trial ended.

Every time he closed his eyes, the nightmares came. But they weren't just memories—they were worse. In his dreams, the hemp ropes multiplied, wrapping around his forearms, his calves, his waist. The cabin became a medieval dungeon with stone walls that pressed closer each night. Sometimes his captors returned with knives, carving into his stretched flesh while he screamed through the gag. Sometimes the ropes tightened until his shoulders dislocated with audible pops, until his circulation stopped completely and his hands turned black. Sometimes he hung there for days, dying by inches while his family watched from the shadows, unable to help.

In the worst dreams, he never got rescued at all. He just hung there until his body gave out—heart stopping from the strain, neck snapping from the weight, blood circulation failing until gangrene set in. He'd feel himself dying, experience every detail of his body shutting down, and still couldn't wake up until the very end.

He'd wake up clawing at phantom restraints, his sheets soaked with sweat, rope burns that weren't there stinging his skin.

"You look like hell," Marco said, setting down a cup of coffee. His older brother had taken leave from his job to stay at the safe house, along with their youngest brother Tony.

"I feel worse than I look." Renzo's voice was still hoarse, probably always would be. "I can't keep living like this."

"The therapist said trauma takes time—"

"The therapist doesn't understand." Renzo cut him off. "She keeps talking about 'processing' and 'healing,' but every night it gets worse. In the dreams, I never get rescued. I just... hang there until I die."

Tony looked up from his laptop. "What are you saying?"

Renzo took a shaky breath. This was the conversation he'd been building up to for weeks. "I need to face it. The real thing. Not the nightmares—the actual experience."

"You want to go back to that cabin?" Marco's voice was sharp with alarm.

"No. Here. With you two." The words came out in a rush. "I need to feel those ropes again, but this time knowing I'm safe. Knowing you'll let me go when I say stop. Maybe if I can control it, choose it, the nightmares will lose their power."

His brothers stared at him in stunned silence.

"You want us to tie you up? Like they did?" Tony's voice was barely a whisper.

"Not exactly like they did. But... similar enough. White cotton rope first, like at the beginning. Just my wrists and ankles, stretched on a bed. Let me feel helpless again, but this time with people I trust watching over me."

Marco ran his hands through his hair. "Renzo, this is insane. What if it makes things worse?"

"How could they get worse? I'm barely alive as it is." Renzo met his brother's eyes. "I've read about exposure therapy. Sometimes you have to walk through hell to get to the other side. And maybe... maybe if I can survive it again by choice, I'll remember that I'm stronger than they tried to make me believe."

The safe house fell silent except for the hum of air conditioning and the distant sound of traffic. His brothers exchanged a look that said everything and nothing.

Finally, Marco spoke. "We'd need rules. Safe words. Time limits."

"You're actually considering this?" Tony asked.

"Look at him," Marco said quietly. "Really look at him. He's dying a little more each day. If this is what he thinks he needs..."

Renzo felt something he hadn't experienced in months—a flicker of hope. Maybe there was a way back from the darkness after all.

Chapter 9: Healing

It took three days of planning before they were ready.

Marco had researched everything—safe words that could be communicated through gags, proper knot techniques that wouldn't cut off circulation, time limits that wouldn't cause real harm. Tony remained skeptical but helped anyway, understanding that doing nothing meant watching his brother slowly disappear into his own mind.

"You're sure about this?" Marco asked one final time as they prepared the guest bedroom. They'd moved the furniture aside, leaving just the bed and two chairs where his brothers could keep watch.

"I'm sure." Renzo's voice was steadier than it had been in weeks. For the first time since the trial, he felt like he was taking control instead of being controlled.

The white cotton rope was soft in his hands—nothing like the rough hemp that still haunted his dreams. They started slowly, just as he'd asked. His wrists bound to opposite corners of the headboard, arms spread but not uncomfortably. His ankles tied together, then stretched toward the foot of the bed.

"How does that feel?" Tony asked, his voice tight with concern.

Renzo tested the bonds, feeling the familiar restriction but knowing—truly knowing—that he was safe. "Tighter," he said. "I need to feel helpless, but helpless with you."

They adjusted the ropes until he couldn't move, until the position echoed the early hours in that first room. Then came the blindfold—soft fabric instead of the rough cloth they'd used. Finally, the gag—clean cotton instead of leather that tasted of previous victims.

"We're right here," Marco said, his hand briefly touching Renzo's shoulder. "We're not going anywhere."

In the darkness behind the blindfold, Renzo felt something he hadn't experienced since before the kidnapping: peace. Yes, he was bound. Yes, he was helpless. But he was helpless in the hands of people who loved him, people who would never hurt him, people who would let him go the moment he asked.

His breathing, which had been panicked and desperate in every nightmare, became slow and measured. His muscles, always tense with the memory of hemp cutting into flesh, gradually relaxed against the soft cotton restraints.

For the first time in months, when sleep finally came, it brought dreams of rescue instead of death. Dreams where the marshals arrived on time, where the ropes were cut away gently, where strong arms caught him and whispered that he was safe.

In the morning, when his brothers carefully removed his bonds, Renzo was smiling.

"Again?" Marco asked quietly.

"Again," Renzo nodded. "But maybe tonight... a little more like it really was."

It would be a long journey back from the darkness. But for the first time since the cabin, he believed he could make it.

First Day on the Job

 


First Day on the Job

Josh sat in the truck, shirtless from hours of sweat in the hot sun, his camo cap pulled low as he took a long drag from his cigarette and chased it with warm Coors Light. The older men seemed to like him well enough. They called him "the kid."

"Left my old man's place," he'd told them that morning, trying to sound casual. "Rich fucker wanted to keep me pampered. I want to work like a real man."

The beer tasted strange, metallic. Josh barely noticed the cigarette slip from his fingers before the world tilted sideways and everything went black.


He woke to rough voices and the taste of cotton in his mouth. The gag cut into the corners of his lips. Josh tried to move and felt the bite of rope across his chest, around his arms pinned behind his back. Coarse manila fibers pressed into his bare skin, the knots positioned just so—tight enough that each breath was work, each movement a choice between air and agony.

The ropes wrapped his torso in a cruel embrace, cutting across his shoulders and circling his biceps. The manila had been wound tight around his forearms too, trapping the dark hair that covered his arms. When he shifted, trying to find relief, the bindings only dug deeper, yanking at the trapped hair, tearing some free with sharp, stinging pulls that made him gasp against the gag.

His wrists, lashed behind him, had already gone numb. Every small movement sent the coarse fibers grinding against his skin, the rope burns spreading like fire across his arms and chest.

"Kid's awake," one of them said.

Through the dim light of the barn, Josh watched the three ranch hands pass a bottle between them. They looked different now—not the weathered workers who'd shared lunch with him, but predators sizing up their catch.

"His daddy's gonna pay good money for this pretty boy," another laughed.

The word "daddy" hit Josh like a physical blow. The last thing he'd said to his father echoed in his skull: Go fuck yourself.


Hour Four

Panic hit like a wave. Josh thrashed against the ropes, his body moving on pure instinct. He threw his weight side to side, trying to loosen the knots, his breath coming in sharp gasps through his nose. The manila bit deeper with each movement, the coarse fibers catching and ripping at the hair on his arms and chest. He could feel individual hairs being torn free, the tiny wounds burning like bee stings across his skin.

Get out, get out, get out.

His arms twisted involuntarily, muscle spasms from the awkward position, and each movement sent fresh agony through his shoulders while the rope scraped away more hair, more skin. The raw patches began to weep, mixing sweat and blood with the coarse manila.

He remembered Tommy's hands on the rope last summer, the careful way his friend always checked the knots before tying him to the oak tree behind the barn. "Just say the word," Tommy would whisper, "and I'll let you loose." There was always an escape, always trust.

This was different. This was forever.

Hour Six

The manila had already begun to chafe. Josh's shoulders burned from being wrenched back, his circulation cut off until his fingers tingled, then went dead. Thirst crept up his throat like sandpaper. The ropes around his arms had worked into the hair follicles, creating a constant low-grade torment. Every breath, every tiny shift sent the fibers grinding against the raw, hairless patches where his skin had been scraped away.

When he tried to call out through the gag, the movement of his chest made the rope across his torso shift, pulling at the trapped hair there too. Tears leaked from his eyes—not from fear now, but from the relentless, grinding pain.

They'd taken their photos—Josh bound and helpless, eyes wide with fear above the dirty rag in his mouth—and now came the waiting.

Hour Eight

Another wave of panic. Josh twisted frantically, his muscles screaming as he fought the restraints. The rope around his chest loosened slightly—just enough to give him hope. He worked at it, rolling his shoulders, trying to slip the bonds, but the movement only made the arm bindings tighter. The manila ground against the raw flesh, each struggle tearing away more hair in clumps, leaving behind angry red welts that burned like fire.

His body betrayed him with involuntary tremors, muscle spasms that jerked his arms against the restraints. Each spasm sent fresh waves of agony as the rope yanked at whatever hair remained, scraping against wounds that had begun to crust over.

"What the hell?"

One of them had returned, bottle in hand. He saw the loosened rope, saw Josh's desperate attempt at freedom, saw the blood on the manila where it had ground against his arms.

"Trying to run away, are we?"

The punch to his ribs drove the air from Josh's lungs. The man retied the ropes tighter, adding another loop around his throat—not enough to strangle, but enough to remind him of his helplessness. The new binding caught more hair, twisted it into the knots.

"Try that again, and we'll make this real unpleasant."

Hour Twelve

Hunger gnawed at his stomach, a hollow ache that seemed to echo in the empty barn. Josh had wet himself twice, the warm shame spreading across his thighs before cooling into humiliation. The ropes had worked deeper into his flesh, grinding away patches of skin on his arms until raw meat showed through. His forearms looked like they'd been scraped with sandpaper, the dark hair torn away in uneven patches.

Even when he tried to stay still, his body refused to cooperate. Involuntary shivers from cold and shock made his arms jerk against the bindings, each movement scraping the rope against the exposed flesh. The pain was constant now, a grinding burn that never let up.

In fitful moments of half-sleep, he dreamed of his father's study—the heavy oak desk, the disappointed silence that followed Josh's latest arrest, the way his father's shoulders sagged when the lawyer called.

You made your choice, his father had said then. Live with it.

Hour Sixteen

Memory flooded back: Danny's basement, the soft cotton rope, the way his friend would always untie him afterward and they'd sit sharing a joint, Josh's skin still marked with the gentle impressions of the bindings. Cotton didn't tear at hair. Cotton didn't scrape flesh raw.

"You like this, don't you?" Danny had said, not judging, just understanding.

Josh had nodded, unable to speak the truth out loud.

But this—this was the nightmare version. The manila was an enemy, designed to hurt, to punish. Every fiber seemed to catch at his arm hair, to find new ways to torment him. His forearms were a patchwork of raw flesh and torn hair, the rope stained dark with his blood.

Hour Twenty

Desperation drove him to try again. Josh had noticed the post he was tied to had a slight give—old wood, maybe rotted at the base. He threw his weight against it, over and over, ignoring the way the ropes sawed into his chest, ignoring how each impact sent the arm bindings grinding against his raw flesh like coarse sandpaper.

His body shook with involuntary spasms from the pain, each tremor making the manila work deeper into the wounds on his arms. He could feel warm blood trickling down to his wrists.

The wood creaked. Hope flared in his chest.

Then footsteps.

"Goddamn it, kid."

This time they used a chain, wrapping it around the ropes at his chest, padlocking it behind the post. The extra weight made every breath a struggle, and pressed the arm bindings even tighter against his torn flesh.

"You're making this harder on yourself," one of them said, but Josh could hear the amusement in his voice. They were enjoying this. "Look at that mess you made."

Josh looked down and saw the dark stains where his blood had soaked into the manila, the way the rope had become matted with torn hair and pieces of skin.

Hour Twenty-Four

The hallucinations began slowly. Josh saw his father standing in the barn doorway, just watching, arms crossed. Sometimes the old man would shake his head and walk away. Other times he'd step closer, his face shifting between concern and disgust.

"Should've stayed home, boy," dream-father said. "Should've been grateful for what you had."

Josh tried to respond, to explain, but the gag turned his words into animal sounds. The movement made his chest rope shift, catching more chest hair, tearing it free. His father faded like smoke.

The ranch hands returned to check on him, laughing at the smell, at the way he'd soiled himself. One of them kicked dirt over the wet straw.

"Your daddy's thinking it over," they said. "Hope you're worth whatever he decides."

Hour Thirty-Six

Delirium set in like a fever. Josh's body had begun to shut down—his kidneys aching, his muscles cramping from dehydration. The rope burns had opened into raw wounds that wept clear fluid. His arms were barely recognizable, the dark hair torn away in patches, the skin underneath scraped to bleeding meat.

Involuntary muscle spasms wracked his body now, beyond his control. Each spasm jerked his arms against the restraints, the manila finding new flesh to scrape, new hair to tear. The pain had become his entire world.

He dreamed of being eight years old, tied to a post in this same barn after breaking his father's favorite rifle. The memory felt different now—not punishment, but preparation. His father had untied him at dawn, Josh sobbing his apologies, meaning every word.

"Sometimes we have to learn the hard way," his father had said, helping him to his feet.

But that was before the drugs, before the arrests, before Josh had learned to hate everything his father represented.

Hour Forty

One last desperate attempt. Josh had been working at the chain for hours, using the metal links to saw at the rope beneath. His wrists were raw and bleeding, but he felt something give. The constant grinding had worn through some of the manila fibers.

Freedom was inches away when they caught him.

"You just don't learn, do you?"

The beating was methodical, brutal. They used fists and boots, avoiding his face—couldn't damage the merchandise—but working over his ribs, his kidneys, his already-tortured shoulders. Each blow sent his body jerking against the restraints, the movement scraping fresh agony from his rope-torn arms.

When they finished, Josh could barely breathe. The ropes felt like they were cutting him in half, and his arms were raw hamburger where the manila had ground away skin and hair.

Hour Forty-Eight

Josh had given up struggling. The ropes had won, working so deep into his flesh he could no longer tell where the manila ended and his skin began. His arms were barely recognizable—hairless patches of raw meat separated by islands of torn, matted hair still trapped in the bindings. His shoulders had dislocated, hanging at wrong angles that sent lightning through his chest with every heartbeat.

Even his involuntary shivers had mostly stopped. His body was shutting down, too weak to fight anymore.

He'll tell them to go fuck themselves, Josh thought as consciousness drifted in and out. Leave me here to die like I deserve.

In his fevered mind, he began to rehearse his own death. He imagined them tightening the ropes until his ribs cracked, imagined suffocating slowly as the bindings crushed his chest. Sometimes he pictured them using the rope around his neck, his vision going black as his father's voice echoed: You made your choice, boy.

The fantasies became more elaborate, more detailed. He saw himself convulsing against the restraints, his body betraying him one final time as life left him bound and helpless. In his darkest moments, he wondered if this was justice—if the ropes that once brought him secret pleasure were meant to be his executioner.

But buried beneath the terror and self-punishment, an older memory surfaced: his father's hands showing him the boundaries of their land when Josh was small, the patient voice explaining which trails were safe, which led to danger. The love in those moments, before Josh had learned to push it away.

I'm sorry, Josh whispered into the gag, though no one could hear. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.


When they found him in the tool shed—unconscious, rope-burned, dumped like refuse—his father was the first through the door. Deep purple bruises circled Josh's torso where the ropes had cut into flesh. His wrists were swollen, his shoulders still twisted at an unnatural angle. His arms were the worst—patches of raw flesh where the manila had scraped away skin and hair, the wounds weeping blood and clear fluid.

Josh's brothers hung back as the old man knelt beside the still form of his son, taking in the rope burns, the chain marks, the evidence of prolonged suffering.

Josh's eyes fluttered open to see his father's face above him, older than he remembered, creased with worry and something that looked like relief.

"I'm sorry," Josh whispered, his voice raw.

His father's hand found his cheek, gentle despite the calluses. "I'm sorry too, son."

Three months later, Josh stood in the same barn where he'd been held, but now he wore the foreman's badge his father had given him. The rope burns had faded to thin white scars across his chest—reminders he carried beneath his work shirts. His arms still showed faint marks where hair had never grown back properly. The ropes were gone, but the understanding between father and son—forged in darkness—remained.